Since I had MRSA, I wanted to make sure that I was healed up to go back swimming and luckily I was able to get in one swim session this week. I posted the same picture some time ago last year as we went every day almost and even in the bitter cold. Going through the challenges we have faced, a crazy schedule with my concert event, camping trips and the tragedy of last couple weeks and the hospital, swimming has been placed in the back. I did go this past Wednesday and I swam the laps over 20 times and I was there for over an hour just doing the lapse. My knees have been giving be some issues, so swimming is a heaven sent. I felt so much better and lighter and it always makes it better for me to fall asleep the night of swimming. I weighed myself at Linda's doctor appointment and I was up from 431 to 433 prior to my swimming. I have committed to do my best to track what I eat and do my best to eat clean. The only problem is I am still facing the depression of loosing the child and the opportunity to see what it would have been like. So going out, getting my mind off of it sometimes turns to eating out. We ended up gong to Chuck-Arama an all you can eat place here in Utah and I had 3 plates and a small desert plate. I knew ate way too much but there is something about tasting good food and getting out of the house that is therapeutic. We went for a ride today at the Alpine loop near Lehi and Alpine Utah and we ate at Arby's because of lack of planning and we wanted to eat on the go. Poor excuses, but it is the reality of depression and the need to be selfish in foods and also by not being more pro-active when eating healthy, but that is what makes life so hard sometimes.
As far as getting back into a routine, it us just going to take day to day attempts and with the groceries I purchased I feel that is one step closer to a lifestyle of living well. Greens, fruits and no cheese, no breads or at least 80% less cheese, breads, mayo's are in our family. I know that the carbs are bad for me and they are considered gateway foods to bad eating. When you have breads you have to have toast that leads to jelly which has SUGARS and carbs.. also it turns into sandwiches with cheese, mayo, carbs and just a sprinkle of lettuce or healthy options. Cheese is another gateway to bad food items. Leads to Spanish dishes, grilled cheese, and so so much more things... pizza, lasagna... so I think you get the hint, right?
Having low carbs and fruit and protein shakes, eating fish or poultry in good meal planning and lots or loads of veggies. I was lucky enough to get groceries from Smiths were I did the order online and Linda picked them up at the store the next day. I think these services are great because you are not tempted at the check out isles, or get tons of stuff you didnt need. Just what you choose when you create the shopping list and the meals for the week.
In conclusion - Depression is real, it happens and doing our part to heal each day is key. Making better options and choices in the drop of the compound effect bucket by choosing healthy options over the bad options. Get your groceries pre-ordered for pick up if at all possible and do your best to treat others an your loved one with love and respect. All the best!!
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